Posterous theme by Cory Watilo

Is the Uncertainty Worth It? Yes!

I was going over my last twenty-four hours and I realized that I am incredibly happy with how things have turned out. Let me walk you through why.

I spent last night going over a side project involving game design, tabletop role play, and storytelling with a few friends. We worked out a couple kinks, ran through a small playtest, and generally had a lot of fun designing a subsystem for our style of play. I didn’t get back ‘til after midnight.

I then went over site inspirations and styles for a project in early development that I am working on as a volunteer. I catalogued the sites, identified the base software where I could and updated the documentation with what I found. Then I actually went to bed.

I was back up by 8:15am. I read my email, had breakfast and generally got ready for the day. My morning well spent, I left and worked for several hours on portal creation and design for the University sponsored humanitarian project that employs me. When I finished there, I barely had time to grab lunch before driving to Cedar Rapids to work as a Tech volunteer for a training, support, and assistance program that is based in the downtown area there.

Tonight, I may swim and then I will work on a couple of poems I have been kicking about. After that, I will read and go to sleep and start a similar day tomorrow. In two weeks, I set off to complete my degree and already I am pulling things together for grad school.

Was losing the job worth it, then? Yeah…and then some. All of above, I couldn’t have done before. It’s true, money isn’t as plentiful as it used to be but today what I did actually mattered. These new portals will help educate people. The systems I fixed will help the staff provide support where it is most needed. All the work I am doing now has value in so many other ways and there is a part of me that feels so much better because of it.  The corporate job I had help set the groundwork for when I am now. It was a series of lessons in and of itself. It was time for it to end then and I think it closed out at just the right point in time.

Of course, we’ll have to see if I feel the same way in a few months when the money gets real tight but that is still a ways off so we’ll see where it leads.

Enjoy life, folks. It is an adventure and there’s something to explore.